Restless

In my last post I mentioned being uncomfortable where I was at - well maybe that wasn't the best word.

Monday night there were thunderstorms and my dog Duke couldn't seem to lay down and go to sleep. He'd be down and then hear something, get up and walk around, then by the time he finally laid down again he'd hear something or see the lightning and he'd be up again. He was restless. He knew that things were different than they had been before and he was on alert.

That's a little more along the lines (I think) of how I feel. I'm not in trouble, I don't think anythings terribly wrong, there's just something different coming and I'm on alert.

Then I found this song thanks to an amazing blog I follow about this families struggles as they tried to adopt from over in Africa. It's a heart wrenching story, but through it all God is glorified and lifted up. She posted this song a few days ago, and while I just read the post I think goes along with what's going on in me.

Restless


You dwell in the songs that we are singing
Rising to the Heavens
Rising to Your heart
Our praises filling up the spaces
In between and frailty and everything You are
You are the keeper of my heart

And I’m restless
I’m restless
‘Til I rest in You, 'Til I rest in you
(Oh God I wanna rest in You)

Oh speak now for my soul is listening
Say that You have saved me
Whisper in the dark
‘Cause I know You’re more than my salvation
Without You I am hopeless
Tell me who You are
You are the keeper of my heart

Still my heart
Hold me close
Let me hear a still small voice
Let it grow
Let it rise
Into a shout
Into a cry

I am restless until I rest in You


Written by Audrey Assad and Matt Maher
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